i am so disappointed in them. raah so much for being ___ hurh. like what i didn't want to do this in the first place. and i am like cheng zhu-ing. yeah and why do you all have to see me as different. i want to be the same as others,we all belong to the same league mind you. if you can say that, i think you really don'tknow me well enough ,but nevermind, i don't need you. I will prove to you people okay, that i can do it without your help. Because you made me do so, because you think you are always there for me but you are not, and for those who always critise my work ethics, that just because you don't see the whole picture, you don't see what went behind all the proposals I did. You didn't see anything, yet you still critised everything. please don't hurt me one after another. I would rather a once and for all stab. yes. but nevermind, i am going to be myself, I am not going to let you down. its really not important anymore, once i knew what I'm working for. You may say I'm great, so confident, yet please don't accuse me of what I'm not. I am so disappointed in you. I have my dreams okay, i gave them up because of all of them. because of the many people thats looking up at me. I would definitely love to be the one listening and not talking.
I want strength to carry one.